The Half Way Point

Photo by Stefano Zocca

The semester is already half over and I wanted to sum up my thoughts and feelings on the studio so far, because they will no doubt change again by the end of the semester.

Collaborating is a real challenge for me. I'm sure everyone in the studio is finding it difficult for different reasons, but I personally just love to work on my own. I like to set my own pace; powering ahead in some stages and then giving myself a break when I'm going through a phase of working a lot or just needing to give myself some rest.

I feel that so far I haven't been challenged too hard in the ways I was expecting (being pushed to try new skills and methods of working, for example).This is perhaps because I've been a bit more willing to let others take control. I feel that I haven't displayed my full potential in working with film yet but I'm really hoping for some magic in the next two briefs.

I haven't felt an attachment to any of the collaborative work that I've produced so far. I'd like this to change by the end of the semester. I'd like to have a work that reflects me in some ways, but that I also couldn't have created on my own. A "true" work of collaboration?

I've worked in pairs for both brief one and two. In class it was mentioned that a third member in a group can serve as a circuit breaker and I really like this idea. I agree that working in a pair can often feel like 'it's your idea or mine' and I think a third person could be really helpful. I haven't found much inspiration in the last two briefs I have completed so honestly I'd love to work in a group that has too many ideas and has to pick and choose between them.

Overall, I think there's more for me to gain from this studio. I haven't been able to show what I'm really capable of creating, it's just the tip of the iceberg. I've kind of just been bobbing along, keeping my head above water and completing everything I need to. In terms of collaboration, I feel that I haven't necessarily gotten into the meat of it yet. I'm curious to find out who I'll be working with for brief three. 

I'm also curious to hear from my future self about what I'll think of this post at the end of the semester!